Updated: Aug 3, 2021
I went to Vegas this weekend to celebrate with a friend, have fun. And, it was very last-minute, spur of the moment. I was like, "I got the invite. Let's go surprise her." It was a, yes, it was a full on, yes. I felt the yes throughout my whole entire body. Go. And when I got to Vegas, I had no idea, but my friend that we were surprising is quite the gambler. And I'm like, "Wow. Okay, cool." Because I swear, normally when I go to Vegas, none of the girls want to gamble. We had a blast gambling. And for me, I wasn't really feeling it this trip. Normally I love to gamble. I wasn't really feeling it. And I'm going to tell you how I decide if I'm going to gamble or not.
I trust the roulette table. I put a 20 on the red or a 20 on the black and let it go. And if I win, I get to continue gambling for the day and if not, I'm out. So I'm not really feeling it. I got a yes for going to Vegas, but I got to no for gambling. So I'm like, "Okay." They kept asking Bethany, "Do you want to do your roulette thing? Do you want to do your roulette thing?" I'm like, "No." And then finally I'm like, "Okay, well I might as well," they keep asking, I feel like I'm letting them down almost. I mean, whatever. That's my own insecurity stuff to work through obviously, no big deal. I decided to give in for the game of it more than anything. I do my 20 wasn't feeling it. What do you think, do you think I won?
Do you think I won when I wasn't feeling it? No. I lost. I definitely lost. The next morning, sure enough, bright and early they're gambling, having fun. And I'm like, "Okay, I'm feeling it. I'm feeling it. Let's do it." I'm feeling it. I'm getting a yes. Put my 20 down and I win. And when I win, then that means I can continue gambling.
Then what's fascinating is I'm just really in the observational state of mind, frame of mind this trip, is I'm just watching so many people play the different games. I'm more of a roulette, blackjack type of person, but just the mental aspects of the highs and the lows, and how, as soon as someone wins, usually they automatically play, play, play, play, play. And as soon as they start losing, they're like, "Maybe I should stop." It's almost like every single person after they won a lot was like, "I think maybe I should stop and pull my winnings," but something held them in the game, the gambling game. Next thing you know, the money is just gone.
I was just watching all these people, amass so many chips to see it just disappear. And every single one was like, "I think now's the time to walk away." My question to you is, are you listening? Are you listening to that voice within that's telling you yes or no, let's do this or no? It's talking to you. There is a voice inside your truth that is talking. It's got your back.